{"id":3872,"date":"2026-01-30T19:51:07","date_gmt":"2026-01-30T19:51:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/?p=3872"},"modified":"2026-01-30T19:51:07","modified_gmt":"2026-01-30T19:51:07","slug":"egy-jo-ferfit-hagyok-el-ot-szo-miatt-es-ezert-mar-nem-szegyellem-magam","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/?p=3872","title":{"rendered":"Egy \u201ej\u00f3 f\u00e9rfit\u201d hagyok el \u00f6t sz\u00f3 miatt. \u00c9s ez\u00e9rt m\u00e1r nem sz\u00e9gyellem magam."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A nevem Sarah. 39 \u00e9ves vagyok. H\u00e1rom nap m\u00falva al\u00e1\u00edrom a v\u00e1l\u00e1si pap\u00edrokat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Any\u00e1m s\u00edr a telefonban.<br>A bar\u00e1tn\u0151im \u00fagy n\u00e9znek r\u00e1m, mintha meg\u0151r\u00fcltem volna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eBiztos vagy benne?\u201d suttogj\u00e1k. \u201eNem iszik. Nem csal meg. Dolgozik. Foglalkozik a gyerekekkel. J\u00f3 f\u00e9rj\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Igen. Ez igaz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mike j\u00f3 ember.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">De nem egy rossz f\u00e9rfit hagyok el.<br>Egy olyan embert hagyok el, aki tizenk\u00e9t \u00e9vig mellettem \u00e9lt, de soha nem viselte velem egy\u00fctt az \u00e9let terh\u00e9t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mike probl\u00e9m\u00e1ja \u2014 \u00e9s sok hozz\u00e1 hasonl\u00f3 f\u00e9rfi\u00e9 \u2014 egyetlen mondatban rejlik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Egy mondatban, amely lassan fel\u0151r\u00f6lt:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eMondd meg, mit csin\u00e1ljak, \u00e9s megteszem.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ezek a szavak napr\u00f3l napra elsz\u00edvt\u00e1k az er\u0151met.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Csendben.<br>Lassan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eSeg\u00edtett.\u201d<br>De csak akkor, ha k\u00e9rtem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Elmosogatott, ha sz\u00f3ltam.<br>Elhozta a gyerekeket, ha \u00fczentem.<br>Mosott, ha megmutattam hogyan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mindig \u00edgy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0150 v\u00e9grehajtott.<br>\u00c9n ir\u00e1ny\u00edtottam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9n voltam a csal\u00e1d vezet\u0151je.<br>\u0150 az \u00f6r\u00f6k gyakornok.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">T\u00edz \u00e9v egy\u00fctt, \u00e9s m\u00e9g mindig nem tudta, hol vannak a t\u00f6r\u00f6lk\u00f6z\u0151k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Minden rajtam volt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sz\u00e1ml\u00e1k.<br>Orvos.<br>Iskola.<br>Sz\u00fclet\u00e9snapok.<br>Csal\u00e1di \u00fcgyek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9n voltam a napt\u00e1r, a titk\u00e1rn\u0151, a k\u00f6nyvel\u0151 \u00e9s a pszichol\u00f3gus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fizet\u00e9s n\u00e9lk\u00fcl.<br>Elismer\u00e9s n\u00e9lk\u00fcl.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Egy este minden \u00f6sszet\u00f6rt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Vacsor\u00e1ztunk. \u0150 a telefonj\u00e1t n\u00e9zte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Azt\u00e1n megk\u00e9rdezte:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eAnyuk\u00e1mnak vas\u00e1rnap sz\u00fclinapja van. Mit vett\u00fcnk neki?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Az \u0151 anyja.<br>Nem az eny\u00e9m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">M\u00e9gis, megint r\u00e1m h\u00e1rult minden.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">R\u00e1n\u00e9ztem, \u00e9s nyugodtan megk\u00e9rdeztem:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eMilyen cip\u0151m\u00e9retet hord a l\u00e1nyunk?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nem tudta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"770\" src=\"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/snapedit_1769802240992-1024x770.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3873\" srcset=\"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/snapedit_1769802240992-1024x770.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/snapedit_1769802240992-300x226.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/snapedit_1769802240992-768x578.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/snapedit_1769802240992-1536x1156.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/snapedit_1769802240992-2048x1541.jpeg 2048w, https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/snapedit_1769802240992-678x509.jpeg 678w, https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/snapedit_1769802240992-326x245.jpeg 326w, https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/snapedit_1769802240992-80x60.jpeg 80w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eHogy h\u00edvj\u00e1k a fiunk oszt\u00e1lyf\u0151n\u00f6k\u00e9t?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Csend.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eMikor j\u00e1r le az aut\u00f3d biztos\u00edt\u00e1sa?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Semmi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eH\u00e1ny \u00e9ves lesz anyuk\u00e1d vas\u00e1rnap?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sz\u00e1molni kezdett.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Akkor \u00e9rtettem meg: egyed\u00fcl vagyok.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Megb\u00e1nt\u00f3dott.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eT\u00falreag\u00e1lod! El\u00e9g lett volna sz\u00f3lni!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9s ez volt a l\u00e9nyeg.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eEl\u00e9g lett volna sz\u00f3lni.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mintha \u00e9n lenn\u00e9k a f\u0151n\u00f6ke.<br>A szervez\u0151je.<br>Az agya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ez a ment\u00e1lis teher.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Kett\u0151 helyett gondolkodni.<br>Mindent \u00e9szben tartani.<br>Soha nem meg\u00e1llni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mert ha meg\u00e1llsz, minden sz\u00e9tesik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Elfogy a tej.<br>Elmaradnak az id\u0151pontok.<br>K\u00e9snek a sz\u00e1ml\u00e1k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9s a hib\u00e1s te leszel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mindig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Elf\u00e1radtam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Elf\u00e1radtam att\u00f3l, hogy \u00e9n vagyok az egyetlen feln\u0151tt a h\u00e1zban.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Elf\u00e1radtam att\u00f3l, hogy egy negyven\u00e9ves f\u00e9rfi \u201eanyja\u201d legyek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nem ez\u00e9rt mentem f\u00e9rjhez.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">N\u0151 akartam lenni.<br>T\u00e1rs.<br>Szeretett ember.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nem egy kimer\u00fclt menedzser.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pr\u00f3b\u00e1ltam besz\u00e9lni.<br>Magyar\u00e1zni.<br>K\u00e9rni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00cdg\u00e9rt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Igyekezett.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">P\u00e1r napig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Azt\u00e1n minden visszat\u00e9rt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mert neki \u00edgy volt k\u00e9nyelmes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mert \u00e9n vittem mindent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Egy nap belen\u00e9ztem a t\u00fck\u00f6rbe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9s nem ismertem fel magam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">F\u00e1radt szemek.<br>\u00dcres tekintet.<br>Neh\u00e9z v\u00e1llak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Meg\u00e9rtettem: ha maradok, elt\u0171n\u00f6k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ez\u00e9rt elmegyek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Igen, egyed\u00fcl\u00e1ll\u00f3 anya leszek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">De m\u00e1r eddig is az voltam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Csak volt egy \u201egyerekem\u201d m\u00e9g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nem fogok t\u00f6bb\u00e9 eml\u00e9keztetni.<br>Nem fogok ellen\u0151rizni.<br>Nem fogok ir\u00e1ny\u00edtani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9lni akarok.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">L\u00e9legezni akarok.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Szabad akarok lenni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nem gy\u0171l\u00f6letb\u0151l megyek el.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Kimer\u00fclts\u00e9gb\u0151l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00d6nv\u00e9delemb\u0151l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Szeretetb\u0151l \u00f6nmagam ir\u00e1nt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">N\u00e9ha egy \u201ej\u00f3 f\u00e9rfi\u201d soha nem n\u0151 fel igaz\u00e1n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9s \u00e9n nem leszek t\u00f6bb\u00e9 az anyja.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<div class=\"mh-excerpt\"><p>A nevem Sarah. 39 \u00e9ves vagyok. 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Any\u00e1m s\u00edr a telefonban.A bar\u00e1tn\u0151im \u00fagy n\u00e9znek r\u00e1m, mintha meg\u0151r\u00fcltem volna. \u201eBiztos <a class=\"mh-excerpt-more\" href=\"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/?p=3872\" title=\"Egy \u201ej\u00f3 f\u00e9rfit\u201d hagyok el \u00f6t sz\u00f3 miatt. \u00c9s ez\u00e9rt m\u00e1r nem sz\u00e9gyellem magam.\">[&#8230;]<\/a><\/p>\n<\/div>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3873,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8,7,1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3872","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-fotto","category-news","category-video"],"views":136,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3872","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3872"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3872\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3874,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3872\/revisions\/3874"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3873"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3872"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3872"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3872"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}