{"id":3904,"date":"2026-02-01T20:56:22","date_gmt":"2026-02-01T20:56:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/?p=3904"},"modified":"2026-02-01T20:56:22","modified_gmt":"2026-02-01T20:56:22","slug":"a-laptopom-kepernyoje-halvanyan-vilagitott-a-felhomalyos-szobaban","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/?p=3904","title":{"rendered":"A laptopom k\u00e9perny\u0151je halv\u00e1nyan vil\u00e1g\u00edtott a f\u00e9lhom\u00e1lyos szob\u00e1ban."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Alig ismertem fel magam a t\u00fckr\u00f6z\u0151d\u00e9sben: \u0151sz\u00fcl\u0151 hal\u00e1nt\u00e9k, f\u00e1radt tekintet, r\u00e1ncok, amelyek \u00e9vtizedek t\u00f6rt\u00e9net\u00e9t \u0151rizt\u00e9k. A keres\u00e9si tal\u00e1latokat b\u00e1multam, \u00e9s k\u00e9ptelen voltam megmozdulni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Egy n\u00e9v.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Egy f\u00e9nyk\u00e9p.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Egy d\u00e1tum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Egy k\u00f6z\u00f6ss\u00e9gi profil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0150 volt az.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Susan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Az \u00e9n Sue-m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A l\u00e1ny, akinek egykor a kez\u00e9t fogtam az es\u0151ben az \u00e1llom\u00e1s mellett, \u00e9s meg\u00edg\u00e9rtem neki, hogy soha nem hagyom el.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A sz\u00edvem g\u00f6rcsbe r\u00e1ndult, mintha hirtelen elfogyott volna k\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00f6ttem a leveg\u0151.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9lt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mosolygott a k\u00e9pen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">De ez a mosoly m\u00e1r nem volt ugyanaz. Hi\u00e1nyzott bel\u0151le a fiatals\u00e1g k\u00f6nnyeds\u00e9ge. F\u00e1radts\u00e1g, f\u00e1jdalom \u00e9s csendes belet\u00f6r\u0151d\u00e9s t\u00fckr\u00f6z\u0151d\u00f6tt benne.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Reszket\u0151 k\u00e9zzel nyitottam meg a profilj\u00e1t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Az utols\u00f3 bejegyz\u00e9se k\u00e9t \u00e9vvel ezel\u0151tti volt:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eN\u00e9ha \u00e9let\u00fcnk legnagyobb szerelme az, akivel soha nem lehet\u00fcnk egy\u00fctt.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00dajra \u00e9s \u00fajra elolvastam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9gette a lelkemet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">R\u00f3lam sz\u00f3lt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">R\u00f3lunk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Becsuktam a laptopot, \u00e9s hossz\u00fa ideig \u00fcltem n\u00e9m\u00e1n. Az \u00f3ra kattogott. A sz\u00e9l verte az ablakot. A vil\u00e1g ment tov\u00e1bb, mik\u00f6zben bennem minden \u00f6sszeomlott.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"751\" src=\"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/snapedit_1769978654612-1024x751.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3905\" srcset=\"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/snapedit_1769978654612-1024x751.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/snapedit_1769978654612-300x220.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/snapedit_1769978654612-768x563.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/snapedit_1769978654612-1536x1126.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/snapedit_1769978654612-2048x1501.jpeg 2048w, https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/snapedit_1769978654612-80x60.jpeg 80w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9vekig gy\u0151zk\u00f6dtem magam, hogy minden j\u00f3l alakult.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hogy \u00edgy kellett lennie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hogy a sors d\u00f6nt\u00f6tt helyett\u00fcnk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hazugs\u00e1g volt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">K\u00e9nyelmes, megszokott hazugs\u00e1g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Az igazs\u00e1g sokkal f\u00e1jdalmasabb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Soha nem v\u00e1laszoltam neki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hagytam, hogy a szerelm\u00fcnk sz\u00f3 n\u00e9lk\u00fcl meghaljon.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00dajra el\u0151vettem a level\u00e9t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A k\u00e9z\u00edr\u00e1s\u00e1t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A bizonytalan sorokat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A k\u00f6nnyfoltokat a pap\u00edron.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eH\u00e1rom h\u00f3napja v\u00e1rok r\u00e1d. Minden nap megn\u00e9zem a post\u00e1t. Minden este rem\u00e9nykedem. F\u00e9lek. F\u00e1j. De m\u00e9g mindig hiszek benn\u00fcnk\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Lehunytam a szemem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">1991-ben fiatal voltam, \u00f6sszezavarodott \u00e9s gy\u00e1va.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c1ll\u00e1saj\u00e1nlatot kaptam egy m\u00e1sik v\u00e1rosban.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Karriert.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Biztons\u00e1got.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A szerelem t\u00f6r\u00e9kenynek t\u0171nt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bizonytalannak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Azt mondogattam magamnak: majd k\u00e9s\u0151bb v\u00e1laszolok.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Holnap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">J\u00f6v\u0151 h\u00e9ten.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Amikor minden rendez\u0151dik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">De a \u201ek\u00e9s\u0151bb\u201d \u201esoh\u00e1\u201d-v\u00e1 v\u00e1lt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9s majdnem negyven \u00e9vvel k\u00e9s\u0151bb szembes\u00fcltem a k\u00f6vetkezm\u00e9nyekkel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Azon az \u00e9jszak\u00e1n nem aludtam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">N\u00e9ztem a f\u00e9nyk\u00e9peit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Olvastam a r\u00e9gi hozz\u00e1sz\u00f3l\u00e1sokat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Megpr\u00f3b\u00e1ltam meg\u00e9rteni az \u00e9let\u00e9t n\u00e9lk\u00fclem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">F\u00e9rjhez ment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Elv\u00e1lt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sz\u00fcletett egy l\u00e1nya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Azt\u00e1n j\u00f6tt a betegs\u00e9g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A kezel\u00e9sek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A csend.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Az utols\u00f3 \u00fczenete r\u00f6vid volt:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eHa egyszer ezt elolvasod, tudd, hogy megbocs\u00e1tottam neked.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Els\u00edrtam magam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sok \u00e9v ut\u00e1n el\u0151sz\u00f6r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nem a f\u00e1jdalomt\u00f3l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nem a f\u00e1radts\u00e1gt\u00f3l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hanem a megb\u00e1n\u00e1st\u00f3l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Att\u00f3l a felismer\u00e9st\u0151l, hogy nem a sors miatt vesz\u00edtettem el a legfontosabbat, hanem a saj\u00e1t gy\u00e1vas\u00e1gom miatt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Reggel d\u00f6nt\u00e9st hoztam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00cdrtam neki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hosszan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0150szint\u00e9n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Kifog\u00e1sok n\u00e9lk\u00fcl.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eSue\u2026 harmincnyolc \u00e9v ut\u00e1n megtal\u00e1ltam a leveledet. Nem \u00e9rdemlek v\u00e1laszt. De ha m\u00e9g eml\u00e9kszel r\u00e1m, k\u00e9rlek, bocs\u00e1ss meg\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Elk\u00fcldtem az \u00fczenetet, \u00e9s \u00fagy \u00e9reztem, mintha bennem valami v\u00e9gleg elt\u00f6rne.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Eltelt egy nap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Azt\u00e1n kett\u0151.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Majd h\u00e1rom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Semmi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Azt hittem, nem l\u00e1tta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Vagy nem akart v\u00e1laszolni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Az \u00f6t\u00f6dik napon \u00e9rkezett egy \u00fczenet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Egyetlen sz\u00f3:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eTe?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00dajra \u00e9s \u00fajra elolvastam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Azt\u00e1n j\u00f6tt egy m\u00e1sik:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eAzt hittem, meghalt\u00e1l.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Eg\u00e9sz \u00e9jjel \u00edrtunk egym\u00e1snak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A gyerekeinkr\u0151l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A h\u00e1zass\u00e1gainkr\u00f3l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A vesztes\u00e9geinkr\u0151l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A be nem teljes\u00fclt \u00e1lmainkr\u00f3l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bevallotta:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eT\u00edz \u00e9vig v\u00e1rtalak.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9n v\u00e1laszoltam:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eEg\u00e9sz \u00e9letemben szerettelek.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Egy h\u00f3nappal k\u00e9s\u0151bb tal\u00e1lkoztunk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Egy kis t\u00f3parti k\u00e1v\u00e9z\u00f3ban.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Lassan l\u00e9pett be, bottal t\u00e1maszkodva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">De a szem\u00e9ben m\u00e9g mindig ott ragyogott ugyanaz a f\u00e9ny.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Csendben \u00fclt\u00fcnk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Negyven \u00e9v.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Negyven elveszett \u00e9v.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Megfogta a kezem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eTudod\u2026 nem hozhatjuk vissza az id\u0151t. De megmenthetj\u00fck azt, ami m\u00e9g megmaradt.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">B\u00f3lintottam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mert v\u00e9gre meg\u00e9rtettem:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Az \u00e9let n\u00e9ha ad egy m\u00e1sodik es\u00e9lyt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">De csak azoknak, akiknek van b\u00e1tors\u00e1guk szemben\u00e9zni a hib\u00e1ikkal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9s \u00e9n t\u00f6bb\u00e9 nem hallgatok.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Soha.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<div class=\"mh-excerpt\"><p>Alig ismertem fel magam a t\u00fckr\u00f6z\u0151d\u00e9sben: \u0151sz\u00fcl\u0151 hal\u00e1nt\u00e9k, f\u00e1radt tekintet, r\u00e1ncok, amelyek \u00e9vtizedek t\u00f6rt\u00e9net\u00e9t \u0151rizt\u00e9k. A keres\u00e9si tal\u00e1latokat b\u00e1multam, \u00e9s k\u00e9ptelen voltam megmozdulni. Egy n\u00e9v. <a class=\"mh-excerpt-more\" href=\"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/?p=3904\" title=\"A laptopom k\u00e9perny\u0151je halv\u00e1nyan vil\u00e1g\u00edtott a f\u00e9lhom\u00e1lyos szob\u00e1ban.\">[&#8230;]<\/a><\/p>\n<\/div>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3905,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8,7,1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3904","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-fotto","category-news","category-video"],"views":349,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3904","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3904"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3904\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3906,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3904\/revisions\/3906"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3905"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3904"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3904"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmak.arminfonews.ru\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3904"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}